by Kristy Webster
At church I struggled to pay attention. In poems, I slid my fingers through the onyx locks of Christ himself. Banshees begged to be drawn in the pages of His Word. This thing, Art, wanted me. Bad. How did I explain this to a Father who only read the Good Book?
Dogma worked its parasites deep inside my bones. I took blades to my forearms, my legs, watched the skin separate and the red beads of blood blossom.
Beneath the surface, there she was: untamed and untamable, Wolf girl, maybe even Dragon girl. I let her out only a little bit at a time in moments of secret solitude: my bedroom closet, the bathtub, the roof of my father’s work-shed. There I would say as I pressed down the razor, Breathe while you can, breath deep because who knows when you’ll get this chance again.
One night I dreamt that spirit children tapped on the glass and helped me crawl out of my bedroom window. It was dawn, the morning oozed through a filter of milky blue. The spirits asked me to dance and when I said I didn’t know how, they took me by the hand and led me through tall waves of turquoise grass. We swayed to the rhythm of the field, we embodied the vibration of the moon, and sung the sun anew. The spirits promised me they were not just a dream, but visitors who made themselves known to me the only way they could.
When I awoke to spend another lonely day at school, the center of my palms pulsed and tingled. I still felt their enchanted touch.
And though I was still very much alone, a sad, trapped child, I knew to believe in my dream. I knew someday I would be a visitor, too.
Editors note (that would still be moi): The Visitors is not considered part of the competition, as even His Moiness sees a conflict of interest. So, please save your votes for other entries.
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