YO!…I mean Yo-Yo. What can be more frustrating than a relationship that reverses course, is within your grasp, and than spirals away with regenerated momentum? Who is the Mysterious CB? She’s not telling. Perhaps she is spiraling to a theater near you, or is at the end of her tether.
AGAIN – I KNOW
I know – cliche, huh? I’ve left you beers in the refrigerator. I figure you’re gonna need them after this letter. I figure you were gonna need them anyway. This shouldn’t come as any surprise but I know it will. I’ve gone back to Ralph. It wasn’t working between us and he is the father of my kids after all. He wants to try again and I owe him that.
It must seem crazy to you after all the things I told you about my marriage – the fights, the call-outs to the police, the debts. And all those threatening phone messages he left me before you changed your number. I know how you wanted to save me from all that but no one can save us from our choices.
I don’t think I was using you as an escape route. Being with you was absolutely the right thing for the kids and for me. But they miss their dad and I realized I miss him too.
I know you’d try to talk me out of it so I took the coward’s way and waited till you went to work. Please don’t try to contact me. I’ll call you when I feel strong enough, when I’m ready to hear your voice again.
You probably think this is because of the fight we had about the summer vacation you promised us, but it’s not. And don’t write me – it would only make things difficult for me at home.
I know I’ve left you before, just like I left him on more than one occasion, but this time it’s different. I can’t explain how. Incidentally, I had to empty our checking account to pay for the traveling – I hope that’s okay.
I hope, in time, we can be friends again.